Therapy.

I have a feeling one day people (or someone) will read this blog and think "Man.....this chick is crazy. She needs therapy....." Then they will get to this post. And hopefully it'll make things clear for them. Or at least open their eyes for a second.

So for the record, i do go to therapy. I began going to a therapy type thing about two years ago.When i say therapy type thing, i mean just talking to someone and getting their feedback. It's basically the same as therapy except with someone that isn't a licensed professional and can only give things from their opinion, not from the classes they went to. It is fine with me too. I honestly had no problem with it. My mom never knew about that and i'm glad she didn't. I don't know how things would have gone if she found out (and how i hid it for so long i'll never know). Eventually i moved on to a real therapist (not that the first person wasn't helping, it was just the situation and everything). I went to the real therapist about two times, maybe three. I really wasn't comfortable with the therapist for whatever reason so i stopped seeing her. It was kind of hard moving from a person that i loved to a person that made me feel uncomfortable and that made me cry the first time i met her (it's a long story, i'll explain it in another post). Yet through the help of the first person (and thank God for their help or i would be nowhere today) i was able to get into therapy at school. So the next therapist i went to was very nice. I feel very comfortable and liked her, although i was still shy. Once again the situation changed, so after half a year with that therapist i was switched over to my current one. I love my current therapist. Or i should say she's really nice and i love what she does for me. So yeah, i go to therapy. I've had basically four therapist and a rather hard time with  it. So you may wonder why i continued to switch and why i still go. The answer is simple really. Because i need help, and because therapy is the one place i get to relax for a while. I can talk about what i need to, work through all that's going on, and no someone cares about me. Therapy makes me feel calm. It really does help just to be able to talk. I wouldn't give it up for the world (seriously i plan everything so i don't miss it).