What i'm living for.

Sometimes i question what i'm living for, and other times i question what i'm taking for granted. So i decided to list all the things i'm living for. I don't know how far i'll get; my counselor had me do this at thanksgiving and i struggled to find ten. We'll see how it goes though. *The first three are very obvious and have been stated numerous times*


1. Celena. Of course i'm living for this kid(: She's my whole world. Well almost. I love her to pieces and she's basically like my little sister. She is the one ten year old i'll tolerate. 
2. Wes and Linda. Duh, i'm living for them. They listen, they care, they love me, they're funny. I love them. 
3. My grandmother. I love her so much, and i am honestly living just to make her proud. I know she's in heaven watching me, so i want her to be pleased. 
4. My God. I don't think i am appreciative enough, but He is the one person who is always there even when i don't realize it. He's there for me in my heart, loving me, keeping me safe, promising i'll make it. I love Him so much.
5. Charlie. Yes, i live for my dog. Charlie had a hard life before we adopted him, and i'm his mom now. We love each other, and i'm not leaving my dog here to suffer along with some new random family. It sounds silly, but charlie is always there to cuddle and lick up my tears (gross, i know but sweet). He doesn't have to say or do anything, just being there is enough.
6. My friends. Abbie, Grace, Nicole, Lily, Kelsey, Ashton, Ben, Josh, Stefani, Abi, Jake, Sulata, Ajeeta, Yuri, Veronica, Priscila, Maddie, Elena, and Allison. These people are always there in their own way. I mean, they just cheer me up with something silly they say, or a nice compliment. They're fun to talk to and listen to, and even if i never tell them anything personal, at least i get the chance to get to know them. I love them all. I hope we all stay in contact (especially the first 12). The first 12 are my "youth group family". I pray we never move to far away to not see each other at least once a year.
7. Piano. It's the most relaxing thing and i love it. I always envy those who play piano beautifully, so i always push more and more to be like that. I always act like i don't want people to hear me play, but secretly i wish someone would care enough to push. 
8. My family. They drive me insane and piss me off a lot, but they've help raise me. They show me what i do and don't want to be like, they take me places and care somewhat. They're nice.
9. The darkness. I am thankful for the dark. It gives me a chance to relax, to be myself without worrying about who see. I can cry in peace. I can dance around, i can sit and think, i can sing quietly or just pet charlie. I can even talk to my grandmother. The dark opens up so many possibilities that i can't happen during the day or while people think i'm up. The dark lets me be me, without being judged. 
10. Church. Youth group is my favorite time of the week, as is Church. They are so relaxing, let me be close with who i love, and i can laugh and have fun. It's so much fun being at church with friends and people i've known my whole life. I always look forward to going.
11. My counselor. Elizabeth and Mrs. Cain both. Both of them care about me and remember me and it's really nice of them. They're both so sweet and funny, and always there. 


Okay honestly, those are almost the same things i was thankful for when i did this at thanksgiving. Oh well, i really am thankful for them. I do live for all those people/things. I couldn't do anything without them. I would honestly die.