Death.

I want to die. Right now. I seriously just want to kill myself right now. I don't even care about anything else. The things i used to cling to as a reason to live are fading away. I just don't know. How do i even explain that i want to kill myself? It's just not something people understand. I just don't know what to say. But thats what i want to do. I want to sob and just die. It would be so much better if i were dead. I mean really.