Continued portion of the video!

So as i was saying before my mom came home, you don't want to be emotionless. It's awful not being able to express your emotions. It becomes something you can't control. You sit there and FIGHT to express something, and yet nothing happens. I just can't explain how bad it is.

So far in the past few years, i've cried all of twice. I mean really cried. There have been maybe 5 times i start crying but literally within five seconds (I AM NOT KIDDING) i have stopped. My brain (more like my parasympathetic nervous system) says your done, and so i am. But the two times i have cried were terrible. I just sat there hyperventilating, kicking at nothing, punching myself, basically losing it. It was awful. So don't get me wrong, i know exactly why people want to be emotionless. It makes total sense. I picked the same route. I'm just saying, that it isn't all that it's cracked up to be. Its an easy thing to do, but an incredibly hard thing to get over. 

If something is wrong, if somethings bothering you, face it. Talk to someone you trust about it. Heck, if you think you have no one, talk to me. You don't know me, but i'm a good listener and you could give it a shot. It's better than trying to forget (which is incredibly hard in and of itself). 

You may not realize it now, but bottling emotions and becoming emotionless have bad affects. When you do either things, you can become depressed. Slowly but surely it could happen. When you have no emotions for an extended period of time you could develop an antisocial personality type (look that up). Neither of those things are desirable in any manner, and neither of them lead to happiness. Just consider that before you decide you want to forget everything that's happened and get rid of emotions. Please, just think about it. I am telling you from experience, it sucks. And it is so incredibly hard to get over.

****For those who want to see the beginning of the video, it's here:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B-GiD_54QLU