It's gonna be a while before my blog is happy again.

I want to punch myself in the face repeatedly. I really just think i deserve it. I don't know why exactly, i just want to punch myself.

No one gets it. How much i want to run away right now, or yell, or punch myself, or tell my mom to shutup, or even how much i wish i could die just to be with my grandma.  No one gets what i'm feeling right now, or how alone this all makes me feel. It's times like these that i almost feel depressed. Maybe i am depressed; i couldn't honestly tell you. I just wanna punch someone and run. Run and never ever come back. I'd write Linda, Celena, and Abbie letters, but that's it. I wouldn't talk to anyone else. Who cares if it would hurt my mom, i sure wouldn't. No one else would care anyway. I hate being here.I want out. I want somewhere new to be. Sure i'd be all alone somewhere else, but i'm all alone her too. It would be no different.