Booooo!

There is something about saying things out loud that makes them so much more real, and more serious. But more than anything, saying things out loud makes them heard, and you can't run from them anymore. So i'm typing this part right now, because i'm not ready for it to be a fact. I'm not ready for it to be said and for it to be permanent. I'm not ready to be hurt by my words. I don't know if it makes sense, but it does to me. Anyways, after i say what i need to, there will be a new video. So what i'm saying is being lonely is the worst. I have no one. Not completely. I mean, Abbie is there when she can be, so is Linda. But there is absolutely no one there every second i need them to be. And that feeling of loneliness is killing me.