It's irrational to be bothered by this, it really is. There's nothing that anyone does to make it their fault, so i shouldn't blame them or be bothered by it. But i am.
What i'm referring to is when someone i know see's my family. I haven't seen my dads family in 6 years, and i miss them so incredibly much. I crave the day i can finally see my family, and relearn everything (including all the names i've forgotten, along with other things). It always bothers me though when my dad and brother see's them. It just makes me wonder why i can't go or why they don't want to see me. My aunt saw my other aunt and uncle at el torro, and the fact that they got to talk to her for a minute bugs me. Why do they get a minute when i haven't had one in so long? I just don't understand.
I know it's not any of their faults. I'm so incredibly aware of that, but nonetheless i can't help myself.
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